Worldofmyown

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Alright, common tests are going to be over.
Geography paper on Friday, i am going to strive all the way.
Mathematics paper was returned back today in Class.
The emotions is really complicated. Like, looking forward and felt that the chances to pass is 50-50.
I had confident that i may do well, but everything turns out the other way round.
Mr wong's first reaction when he passed me the paper : '' Jiahao, what happened? ''
And at that split moment, i knew that i did not do well for the paper.
And indeed, i failed. By 5 marks, out of 50. Realised that there's alot of careless mistakes.
Alot of 3-4 marks questions i did know how to solve.
Because a=1x, so a = 1. But i wrote x. which is completely wrong!
So eventually, even though i had a very long formula method of solutions and all the correct answers.
I scored zero. Because x in the first place should be 1 as that's the co-efficient.
So at the whole workings, there are just alot of circles circling my x!
Seriously, it's very wasted because i think all the 3 and 4 marks questions.
Will definitely affects my overall performance for the paper if i didn't made such mistakes.

I am disappointed, in a way or another. Very disheartening.
Spending 8 hours of time and sacrificing my sleep for the Maths paper.
Sleeping at 2.30am, and waking up at 5.50am the next morning and feeling slumberous the whole day.
Drinking coffee, and other drinks with vitamins to keep myself awake for the whole day.
Practising those sums, clearing my doubts, and this is the results that i am getting back.
And all those who didn't really studied or revise, all scored much higher results than me.
I don't know what to do now, it's only CA1 and it's already so *&^%$#@!.
So what am i expecting for the End Of Year? People are already looking down on those who failed.
Like, 90% of the class passed, and we're the minority of 10% who failed.
Going around trying to be arrogant, and as what rachel said. They're over-rated.
Can't you guys just think that there's many people who is much BETTER than you?
What's the point of being so proud of yourself and laughing at others? Stoping being a hypocrite.
Most of them were shocked when they knew my results, as i am one of the top student.
So, what's wrong with me? I better get back to my usual self, stop thinking too much.
And be top student again this year, and no one else could take my place.
I am quite motivated by DE LAOSHI's encouragement, so i am going to improve my Mother Tounge.
A1, is always my grade. This year, as well. :D

If i don't pass Maths this year, there's a posibility to be retained.
Which, i am sure, no one wants to and everyone wants to do well for everything and be promoted.
Like you know, Maths is just as important as English now.
New criteria for my Batch in 2009 was to pass English and Mathematics.
With another 3 subjects in order to proceed to Secondary 5.
Cut off points must be less than 19, which is so much challenging than before.
I got to pass Maths, no matter what.Sometimes i feel that i wanted to give up, but i can't.
Thinking of the joy that I pass Maths is definitely a thing to be looking forward to, an atleast a B3.
Issit too difficult to ask for? I don't expect much, seriously.
Sometimes i felt regret for not choosing to be promoted to Express. I don't know.
I miss the life of Lower Secondary with Miss Chan, and is very stress-free. Not as much as now.
I am sorry, this post is really Emo. You can ignore this if you want to.

There's no one i could turn to.
I just need someone to talked to.
Laughters is just my front image.
Tears and disappointment were just the inside of me.
I need help in Maths, but does anyone cares?
It seems that none of my friends knows me well, even the besties.
There's no encouragement, there's no comfort, it's just plan nothing.
I felt useless sometimes, i had tried my very best already, really.

Jiahao,17yrs old.
Yuying Secondary.

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